Hey, I am a human. I have my pride, you don't have to go on and on with you nonsense about ME not getting good results for anything. If you are trying some method to trigger me into studying, you are seriously mistaken. The only thing you all are doing now is crushing the very little pride I have left. I know myself better then any of you all. I hate studying. I really despised studying. And what am I doing? Studying. All because this bullshit family have so many doctors and lawyers and whatever bullshit specialist. All because their sons and daughters all have no lives, studying all day long. Sorry, I have ADHD. I lose focus on things I have no interest in easily. Do they have ADHD? No.

Oh, and you go on. How I was still in par with my cousins when I was in primary school when I told you I'm different from them. You tell me I have slacked off since then. Then let me tell you. Just the opposite. In primary school, I don't do my homework, give fake contact numbers to my teachers, even played truancy once. But I can stay in par with those cousins I have, why? Primary school education to me is nothing. So, your attitude towards me changed since I entered Nan Hua. Cause I ain't like those nerds that go into RI or HCI RIGHT?

You tell me you lose face in front of relatives. You don't want to go to gatherings cos' you find that I am an embarrassment with my lousy results. You come back and whine to me how good other people are. OH LOOK, KAI EN IS GOING OVERSEAS AS A REPRESENTATIVE OF RAFFLES. OH LOOK, SHI HUI GOT As FOR ALL HER PAPERS EXCEPT CHEMISTRY FOR HER PROMOTIONAL EXAMS. You know what, I hate that. I hate that line.

Trust me, I will pull through. To show everyone I can do the unthinkable. I will get back the spirit I once had years back.

Crazy time in camp today. Though I must admit, some parts weren't as good as expected. But overall. Good job, I had loads of fun. Seniors coming back again. Crazy captains ball game. What more would I ask for? I would really dread the day we leave Infocomm.

But, I scolded a junior seriously for the first time in my 11 month on becoming Exco. Lets just say, some people have limits eh? (:

Sometimes, I thought that my plans would work fully out. Sometimes, I thought that I was in control of everything. Sometimes, I even thought I was infallible. I was wrong.

Things never go the way I plan out. Things never gets along the way I want it. Things always fail to happen when I do something. Sometimes, I just need a little time to chill out. But how could I? Nothing is making sense to me anymore. I hate acting happy when I am not. Why can't I just forget everything and delete everything in my memory?

I will try my best to forget. Though I am quite sure it will not be that possible. I have to move on and forget the past.

It has been TOO long since i blogged. O: I shall post something today! :D

I STILL CAN'T FIND MY HEADPHONES. .____. ):

I have lost all hope. Never expecting for you to be so fast to strike. She disappeared right before my eyes.